Tell Them You Love Them

I’m still here. I feel lost on a sea of darkness. I do not know that I shall write about this horrid life-experience when it ends, but, writing has always been therapeutic, but never, ever in my life have I written nor experienced something that shatters my very soul.

I want to drown. I want to pour myself over the edge of this darkness, I pray for the gods to make a trade .. take me instead. But as the tree falls in the forest, if no one is there, who hears?

The greatest gift in life is to blessed with healthy children. The most unbearable pain is to lose your child to an evil disease.

Life isn’t fair.

Hug your children, no matter how old they are. Let them know how they enriched your life. I think that my son already knows this because I’m a “huggie, lovey” kind of person, but, I will forever have doubts that I let him know enough.

I know my son loves me and that I contribute to his pain in that he doesn’t want to see me hurt. I’m hiding my heartbreak, I cry in hidden corners. I cannot believe this is happening in my life. Doesn’t it always happen to someone else?



17 responses to “Tell Them You Love Them

  1. I wish it never happened to anyone. Bless you for your courage. ❤

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  2. It’s such an unfair, cruel disease. It takes so much from everyone. My heart breaks for you as much as it does for my family and me.


  3. Powerful….we must fight so others will not have to fight this darkness in the future.
    Your courage is an example to all….


    • Whatever time I have left on this earth will be dedicated to pancreatic cancer. I cannot imagine a more horrendous foe as it is undetectable in the early – curable – stages. Thank you for your comment.

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  4. Bless you and your strength. I am so sorry you and your family are going through this. Horrid. Much love-Mark


  5. I my virtual hugs can help, you have them. All of them.


  6. I am so sorry for the pain you and your family are experiencing right now. My prayers go up for all of you.


  7. Sending you positive thoughts across the miles!!


  8. Thinking of you!! Big hugs!!


  9. Swoosie, Words can’t do justice to what you must be feeling. All i can say and do is remember you in my prayers and in my thoughts. All the love to you. Hugs ❤


  10. I am so sorry Swoosie, I cannot even imagine losing one of my children! cancer steals the precious gift of life and leaves behind the loved ones with an indescribable feeling of pain and loss. My heart is deeply saddened, my prayers are with you and may God continue to give you the strength that is needed to get you through. Hugs and love to you and your family. God bless.


  11. I’m so sorry I missed this originally, Swoosieque. Amid the darkness, this is an apt and beautiful Mother’s Day sentiment: “Hug your children, no matter how old they are. Let them know how they enriched your life.” I hope you will be able to carve out some solace from writing (although not about this horrific situation). I’m so very sorry your son and you have to go through this heart-breaking struggle. I’m hoping for the very best for you both.

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